Back 2 Skoool :@

Hey guys! It feels kinda weird blogging after school now! Well, I started school on Wednesday, and I have never felt soo exhausted in my life !!! I didn't realize school could do this to you. Ok. Well as you've probably noticed (hence the title), this post is based on my school life so far. For those who don't know, I am now in Year  9 and loving it right now!

Ok, Let me fill you in on my first year in secondary school (for the BIG people) :)  started off my secondary life as a quite timid . I honestly did not answer questions but then again nobody does at first. Gradually, my confidence blossomed at school and my peers got to know the real me as I could express myself a lot more. I first made friends with 2 girls called Daniela, Alice and later, Kai O (My BFF). They were really nice to me and a lot more confident than I was. As the year went by, I met my true best friend... Lauren! By that time I had noticed I was a lot confident outside of school than in school... weird, i know right!? Anyway, I was on the 410 bus when the bus missed my stop ( I was kinda p-ed off then) so I got off at the next stop. I noticed this other girl, who looked my age but in another faculty(house), get off and walk up the same road as me. I ran up to her and was really friendly... Months later, we were like inseparable best friends. That was the highlight of my first year!

Year 8....Was way better than year 7. I knew everyone and it was a memorable year for me and my peers! I loved year 7. I became better friends with loads of people! Year 8, I think was the year full of Deceit, Betrayal, Secrets, Lies, Happiness, Laughter, Excitement, Gossip and growing up. I changed a lot last year, and many can tell you that! But that's all I'm revealing of Year 8! :)

The holidays were AWESOME by the way!

Year 9 is going to be awesome. I've made friends, enemies and progress in my studies...booring. But now is the time to buckle down and focus on my studies as well as BE MYSELF. I'm hoping to get as many A* s as possible but an A will be just as good :) Wish Me Luck X

Accept It Man!

A lot of people have been asking me to do another post because they enjoyed the others so much! Thank you everyone who have read my blog and given me feedback! Xxx

This post is dedicated to ma teens out there! Don't you just HATE it when your parents can't accept the fact you've changed?? Well, here's a personal problem I have. I feel my parents don't understand the fact that I have changed and I am actually growing... Proof is I am now 5ft something, not that little 4ft 7 year old anymore. Awkward subject for most teens and their parents is that your gonna grow up eventually and to just accept it. When I was like 5 I wanted to be Barbie (I know... Embarrassing) But that was the thing about being young, you had these dreams and possibilities to be whoever and whatever. Now, I'm 13; and gonna be 14 in 2 weeks (Soo excited...I honestly don't know why though :s); I wanna be a movie director and have the best actors like Johnny Depp and Angelina Jolie etc featured in my breathtaking movies. I will be recognized at big movie awards and open schools and acting and directing colleges across the UK and hopefully the US! I will show teenagers out there that dreams can come true and to make the impossible actually possible!

Sorry about that, I have a habit of rambling as I've been told several times. I don't even realize it!? My point is that parents seriously need to start making sense. I mean, you say 'act your age' but some of the 14 year olds out there are dressing in hardly any clothes and make up caked on their face going out at all hours of the night! I'm pretty sure you don't want me to act like that! Also to ma teenage girls reading this, don't you just hate it when your parents give you 'The Look' when they find out you've changed your 'MSN' (example) name to something like I love Mindless Behaviour (My ultimate favourite boy band :O) or Trey Songz or some other hot celebs! I know some adults may be raising their eyebrows here but it's true. And dressing in crop tops and leggings with your eyebrows done with all the necessary accessories 'cos it's part of growing up and you wanna look nice with all my swagger when you go out.

Sometimes I think my parents treat me like a baby or don't trust me, And Yes I know all about the streets of South London and the dodgy people but then again you find dodgy people everywhere. Here's an example of my changed ways over the years:
Fav Food
When I was 7:  Spaghetti Bolognaise
Now: Macaroni Cheese and some of dad's beautiful BBQ Ribs Mmm

Fav Drink
When I was 7: Still Fanta No Ice
Now: PEPSI <3

Fav Author
When I was 7: Jacqueline Wilson/ Enid Blyton
Now: Stephanie Meyer, Becca Fitzpatrick, Lauren Kate etc.

Fav Book
When I was 7: Jacqueline Wilson: The Story of Tracy Beaker
Now: Stephanie Meyer: Twilght Saga Breaking Dawn (Soo Awesome)

Fav Artists
When I was 7: Ashanti, Dad's Remixes
Now: Drake, Mindless Behaviour, Trey Songz, Bruno Mars etc

When Bored
When I was 7: Games
Now: Sleep B'cos I'm so bored + friends don't have credit to reply to my texts unless you're on 'BBM' or FaceBook

Hair Style
When I was 7: Two ponytail Plaits
Now: Straightened or slicked up using gel because it easy to do

When I was 7: None
Now: Mascara, Kohl (Eye Liner), Lip-gloss or Vaseline

When I was 7: Primary
Now: Secondary School which is sooo boring ;O YAWN!

Fav Channel
When I was 7: CBBC or CBeeBies
Now: VIVA or 4Music (I haven't got E! or MTV or Disney :P)

See! This is how much I've changed! And I'm gonna change a lot more so please parents out there communicate with your teens but just remember that this is the 21st century and things have changed a lot over the years so don't react drastically! Be cool!

P.S: To my Mum And Dad, I Love You Both But Seriously..... Accept it man!

FaceBook!? Why not??

Ok guys, here's my problem:
My parents won't allow me to have FaceBook (Nearly every one that reads this is probably familiar with this social network!). Most of my YOUNGER cousins have FaceBook and use it on a daily basis. Me on the other hand. I honestly think it is offensive! If their parents can TRUST their children to use a website to communicate with, possibly, everyone they know, why can't mine. I know I'm not the most well behaved teen of the year but cum'on! What's the worst that could happen! I'm not that stupid to post naked photos online or chat to random peado's, 'cos I'm just not like that! It really bugs me... especially when kids at school say stuff like "OMG! Did you see so and so's 'dp' (display picture)" or "Check out my wall pics". It is actually embarrassing to be honest because I'm like the only person in probably the whole year who hasn't got FaceBook or Twitter :/ I mean why not?!

I don't get what the problem is with girls taking good pictures, editting them, saying stuff like 'Beautiful Eyes' or 'Gotta Luv Me'. I mean if that's what they think then just leave them!

Also, TALKING TO BOYS! Why do parents hate their daughters talking to boys and going places like ice skating with boys. I totally understand the risks but cum'on if their daughters trust these good friends (boys) then so be it, it's the dodgy ones you gotta be careful of! Ok. Here's another one of my examples: I asked my mum if I could go Ice Skating with my friends. Instant response. "Who's going?" or "Which friends?". In my situation it was 2 girls and 1 boy. Immediately, my mum responded "Which boy?". She said it like there was a possibility of knowing who he was but then again that's mums for ya! I said, with ease, "Some boy, Good friend!". Typical response. "Just make sure it stays like that!" And I'm standing there thinking... Was that a threat??

I mean seriously parents really need to lay off sometimes. Girls CAN have 'male-friends', if you didn't want me to communicate with boys, why send me to a mixed gender school? Please elaborate on what you mean. It is actually very confusing and makes me feel really UN-trusted. Can you imagine how the teen must feel if you can't trust them, and this is what triggers the teen to rebel because they feel they can't trust the parent and feels unloved. Parents should go by Malaysian tradition! >_-, My Aunty Fina told me about how Malaysian parents are forever showing their children love. The children are everything to them and they adore them so much the kids don't even dare step out of place (it does actually make sense) and that's something the parents out there should all be doing!!

Floating in a bubble...

Don't you ever feel 'out-of-place' or misunderstood? Do you ever feel invisible when around your friends or family?
I feel like nobody knows me anymore. I feel change is actually of the essence. My likes and dislikes have change...GET OVER IT! That's what I think when people say really hurtful things like "You've changed!" and "I feel I don't know you anymore!?" because people don't know anything about how I feel on the inside. So I will express my views and personal thoughts on this topic through this blog. Firstly i'm not that little 7year old with the long plaits and unique mismatched clothes! Maybe I have changed but maybe it's for the better. One thing I hate is when you meet friends of parents and the first thing they say is "YOU'VE GROWN!" and I have no choice but to wonder "...Did you think I was gonna stay young forever or something?!?!". It really bugs me.

I'm having trouble at home right now. I feel my parents don't understand me. Here's an example (and I hope my dad reads this!):
Dad: Come off that laptop and go to bed!
Me: Ok.
>>>>>>>>I Begin To Save My Blog And Shut Down<<<<<<<<
About 4 Mins Later
Dad: Don't do anything
Me: What do you mean (I was really clueless at this point... I really didn't know what he meant :@)
Dad: You know what I mean!

I mean, no offence but, if I knew what you meant I wouldn't be asking, would I? I love my dad lots and lots but sometimes I feel he treats me like I know everything and i'm supposed to be perfect and i'm pretty sure there are a lot of teenagers these days who feel this way. I'm always told to act my age but when I act my age it's not good enough. The female teenagers nowadays are a lot different to back in the days. There are different types; the plastics (who shop all the time and wear miniskirts and heels and gossip all the time), the funny emo/goth people (who wear black all the time and who listen to 'Gerard Way' and some other people I've personally never heard of), the Don't-Mess type (Where the people are feared and who have friends who are only friends for protection), the Watever type (who tend to smoke, drink and don't care about anything except themselves and their image) and last but not least the people in between. I am one of the many people in between. I like to shop, I do wear black alongside my colourful clothes, I have friends from all these different cliques, I prefer to live my life how I please and I would love it if others could accept me as who I am. But when I choose things from New Look and H&M that I really love! I'm met with a very anxious-to-see-what-she-bought mum. I bought a pencil skirt and a one-shoulder dress (It wasn't even revealing!) I had to get a refund for both of them :O I understand that my parents want to protect me and for me to not be exposed to unfortunate events :L but sometimes parents have to respect a child's opinion and view's and just let them. If anything the child WILL learn from their mistakes. How many of you were told not to put a fork in  the toaster.... Then put the fork in the toaster and have been given an electric shock?
[ This Is Not CopyRight...It Is Not My Video! >.< Must've Hurt Though :/ ]

If you're a parent and reading this please understand and accept these words of wisdom from a 13 year old. Nobody's Perfect! You preach this message to your kids but do you even accept it and accept that they are individuals too and have a right to do whatever the hell they wanna do! If they are forced to fall into line at a young age...don't be surprised if they rebel! Talk. Connect. Take the time to understand your child.

If you're a child understand that parents don't know everything. Be honest with them, talk to them.......[I feel like a therapist or Guru or something giving good advice like this :P]. But just don't give up! If you feel life is unfair, be optimistic! Think of the positive times you've shared!

Word of Advice: If you find it hard to reveal these inner pains and thoughts, stay cool and consider writing a blog about how you feel :) That's what I did!

Big Up All My Friends And Fans Who Encouraged Me To Start Blogging :)
Thanks Aunty Fina Xxxx
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Let's All Set Trends!

Have you ever been in a situation where someone has asked "Do I look alright?" and you feel forced to say "Yes!" or "Of 'course!"? The reply can be very controversial to be honest because saying yes and thinking no implies you are a bad friend by not being honest however, hurting someone's feelings can be really...hurtful, can't it? So what exactly should you do?
Here is a typical story I have chosen to share...
It was a Thursday...I think when me and 3 of my friends went to the cinema to see that Harry Potter film that came out recently. It was a very...'UN-interesting' film for me and so I spent half the film gossiping about people next to my friend and confiding in each other. We all started throwing popcorn around the place instead of actually EATING the popcorn :s I was kinda P-ed off at the fact I had popcorn down my top and spent at least half an hour actually trying brush the crumbs off my top. The part that REALLY upset me is when nobody could tell me my fringe looked CRAAAAZY! I mean cum'on guys could you seriously not tell me my hair had a bit of a redecoration?? Inside I suddenly felt betrayed that my good friends couldn't even HINT! But in another way I felt grateful I had discovered it before they could tell me because that would be like sooo embarrassing and humiliating. So my fellow readers...Wanna hear about what I did???

.....................I Beat The CRAP Out Of All 3 Of 'Em

Lol....Nah not really. I just LAUGHED IT OFF and that's what I think Teens nowadays need to start doing. I  mean, why flip out because you found out your friends chose not to tell you how messy your hair looked? Why not just LAUGH.....Laughing solves everything!

Mr. Krabs: I didn't want to tell you this in front of Patrick, but that hat makes you look like a girl.
SpongeBob SquarePants: Am I a pretty girl?
Mr. Krabs: Well... yes, you're... you're beautiful.
[Mailman passing by stares at Mr. Krabs in disgust]            

Well, the message is clear and easy to understand: Don't worry about what people think of you due to your appearance (and that DOESN'T mean not having a shower for weeks because you don't care!) And if they do comment or 'diss' you, don't diss them or take it personally (they're just haters to be honest). Just be yourself and if anything, SET TRENDS! Be like Michael Jackson who came up with those funky ankle swingers and crisp white socks. Or Nicki Minaj with the half-blonde and half-pink wigs. Or Go OUT THERE like Lady Gaga and her colourful clothing line and unique fashion sense! Think about it :)

P.S: You Don't See Spongebob Tryna Copy Everyone Else's Style Or Swagger!?!?....
[Remember: Don't Be A Swagger Jagger! :P]


My Life So Far...

I am a thirteen year old girl. Firstly, I don't come from Canada (it was kinda random to be honest and word of wisdom don't hate Canadians because Drake is one); I actually live in South London. Oh one thing I thought you might want to know...I don't write to impress; i write to express my views and opinions. Every teenager has their own dreams and ambitions that they wish to accomplish but how many of them actually succeed? They either give up or are distracted due to the peer pressure of teens nowadays. I am going to be a director straight up. I don't care about what other people think about what I look like or what I wanna be. One thing I hate yeah is when people ask "What do you wanna be when you're older?" I say with ease, "A film director!" and then they roll their eyes or give that really annoying look. I mean do you really have the right to roll your eyes when I have my own perspective of life. I think different to you and have big ambitions so it is not fair to judge. I mean personally, I think everybody has dreamt of jammin with the celebs like Beyonce and Drake and driving in a glimmering Bentley and navy blue Jaguar.

Ok Ok. Enough bragging about my future and dreams. I wanna talk about how i'm coping with my life. I have 3 jobs. I am a part-time babysitter, a part-time dishwasher and a permanent slave to my family. I am there for them 24/7 travelling through rain and storms to reach them and satisfy their needs (nah not really). I am currently in the change-over of Year8 and Year9. I believe in allowing teenagers their freedom to do as they please. We only live one life so use it wisely, as my Mum once said "You've got £1, Spend it wisely. I ain't giving you any more."

My purpose of this blog was to express my views on teenage life. It is full of b****es out there that will put you down and degrade you but you must fight them (not literally). But just show 'em whose boss. Be Yourself! I know it's typical to say "Express yourself.", but it's a true lesson in life that everyone should learnt to accept. #WORD